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I'LL BE HAPPY WHEN...

I will be happy when I finish my exams.
I will be happy when it's summer break.
I'll be happy when school is over.
I'll be happy when I go to university.
I'll be happy when I finish uni and have some money.
I'll be happy when I get a job.
I'll be happy when I get a job I like.
I'll be happy when my shift is finished.
I'll be happy at the weekend.
I'll be happy when I get a boyfriend.
I'll be happy when we move in together.
I'll be happy when I am married.
I'll be happy when we have a baby.
I'll be happy when we have another and our family is complete.
I'll be happy when the kids get a bit older.
I'll be happy when they go to uni and we have time to ourselves.
I'll be happy when I retire.
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I was happier when
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For as long as I remember it has always felt that life, real life was about to begin. There would just be one obstacle in the way, a challenge that needed to be gotten through first, then I could be happy. With every obstacle I've gotten through there has always been one more thing in the way, one thing that wasn't perfect, one thing that meant I couldn't be happy right now.

Often times, when I got through that obstacle and got what I 'needed' to be happy I found myself looking back with nostalgia and missing old times despite wishing them away before. 

Lately I have come to the realization that the perfect time to be happy is right now. Life will always be full of challenges, maybe it's better to admit that to ourselves and try to be happy anyway?

I have always felt like I will not be truly happy until I find 'the one' to share my life with, then my life would really begin. But now I'm starting to realise that I shouldn't wish for that to happen as soon as possible. I should enjoy this time on my own because when I do find 'the one' (if there is such a thing) my time will never be my own again and maybe then I'll look back nostalgically at the time I was 24, single and completely free.  

I'm starting to realise that I need to stop waiting for my life to start because it's already started, this is it, all of these obstacles and challenges are my life. 

So here's to living for the present because the future isn't guaranteed. 

"There is no way to happiness, happiness is the way" is going to be my words of inspiration going forward.

What are your thoughts on this? Are you like me and always been one to feel like you can't be happy until ____.?

Sinéad x
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