Where's my good karma?

My heart is so heavy right now. My head is pounding, my throat is swelled and I feel like I could burst in to tears at any moment. For some reason, when I am feeling upset I have an urge to just write. Just let it all pour out of my brain. 

Do you ever feel like all you do is be your best but you don't get anything back in return for it? Some people believe in Karma, that if you put goodness out in to the world good things will happen to you. Well why isn't that working for me?

 I don't mean to blow my own trumpet but I am a positive person and I try to spread that positivity to those around me. I do things for others when I know they wouldn't do the same for me, but I do them because I know that I would like the help if I were them. I try to always be thoughtful and kind to people. Like coming up to Christmas now, I have been spending ages online looking for presents for those I love, and I really want to make everyone happy. 

I know I sound like such an idiot but I have had such a bad week and I feel like I get nothing in return for what I do or my *positive vibes*. People have hurt me so much this week. From being picked on in work for no reason at all to being treated with disdain by those I think the most of, I'm having a 'why does no one give a shit about me moment' plus I just burned my chips...great!

I just feel so hard done by this week, I want to curl up in a ball and forget the world. I don't know why I'm writing this here because who wants to hear from a whinger?! But my blog has always been a safe haven for me to escape too, it's one constant in my life for the last 3 years and writing here is such great therapy, it feels like a warm hug. 

I just want to let anyone out there who feels badly treated by others that you're not alone, the world isn't against you and it doesn't mean you aren't an amazing person. 

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