The 'real life' and 'blogging life' divide is something I've never spoken about before but today I had an urge to write about this to hopefully start a discussion with you guys. My feelings are very hard to verbalise so I hope you understand.
So many bloggers I follow seem to have their blog and their real lives intertwined. All of their nearest and dearest know about their blog, understand why they take a camera everywhere and even help them with taking pictures and writing posts. I think this is wonderful but it sometimes makes me wonder why I can't be more open about my own blog.
Literally two people in 'real life' know about my blog and one of them is an ex who I don't speak to any more. The other is a best friend who doesn't really read it. Sometimes I feel guilty for being secretive and not mentioning a huge hobby of mine to my friends and family. Sometimes I question if it means I am lying to them or concealing something major about myself. I can spend a good portion of each day thinking about and working on my blog and the fact that no one knows this really does make me feel like they don't know a huge part of who I am.
"So Sinead, why don't you just tell them?" you must ask. Well, I honestly don't want to. And that's not because I'm embarrassed or ashamed in any way. I'm actually very proud of my blog. However, I just like to keep it separate from my real life. For me, it's more enjoyable that way. It allows it to be a form of escapism from real life. I can come hear and talk to my blogger friends who don't know me personally so can only form objective judgements of me. They are looking in on my life and my thoughts from 'the outside' so they can offer unbiased opinions and contribute real sincere discussions.
It's a fact of life that we behave a certain way around the people we know. For example, there are things we would talk about with some people but not others. This doesn't mean we are two faced, fake or not being ourselves It's just human nature to slightly change to another version of ourselves depending on the person we are interacting with.
By being a random anonymous girl to the people reading my blog I don't feel like I have to do that. I can just be the raw, original me. Talk from the heart about the things that are truly on my mind (and not worry that someone I wouldn't say it to is reading) and that is so refreshing and one of the reasons I love blogging so much. That is why I don't tell all of my friends, family and acquaintances to go follow my blog.
Still, I can't quite shake the guilty feeling that I am being deceptive. So I would love to hear what you guys think. Do you understand how I feel and my dilemma?
I would love to know what your real life and blogging life situation is. Let me know in the comments down below.